A really wordy post.

Been out almost every single day shopping/catching up with my lovely humans.

Went bookshopping/cny shopping/ school supplies shopping.

Am really satisfied with all of my buys :>

Checked off everything I was ever looking for since ages ago except for my black suede wedges/ hidden wedge sneakers sigh. Still glad with all of my buys nonetheless!

AND I FINALLY FOUND LFA OH HECK YEA THE GREAT PERHAPS IM HERE TO DEVOUR YOU ALL OVER AGAIN.

Finally got my Baggu backpack for school too! Bought the coral one you guys can go check out baggus and baggubag.com lol.

Just got back from 401's class bbq.

Had quite a lot of fun with the usuals and the rest haha the food was good ~

Photos on all the dates/outings for the past few days up when my macbook is finally repaired.

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Times like this I really don't know why i'm still trying, why i'm still holding on to that tiny bit of faith that has kept me going till now.

When night falls, my mood falls. I think, and i think. I wonder, I hope, I pray.

Always upset, always feeling negative.

This mask of positivity that I put on, it falls when the number of humans around me falls to zero.

My mind feels like a sea. A sea of battling waves, each tide of emotion trying to overcome one another over and over again.

There are things in my mind that I need to kill.

To get rid of, completely and thoroughly so that I will leave no traces of them behind.

You drown your sorrows in alcohol, I drown my sorrows in solitude and prayers.

We pray silently in desperate hope that all the negativity that we've suffered would soon abate.

Timorously, we creep to the surface of hope, we climb and inch and reach for what we've all been blindly racing for in this society of broken expectations.

We heave a sigh of relief and celebrate for we've finally clinched what everyone has been chasing for.

But deep down somewhere, you slowly realise that what you've been chasing for is nothing like you ever wanted.

Alas, what we are left with is nothing.